SOULMATE |
The word defines a bond and connection with no equal. It defines a relationship where conflict is a non-operating word. It outlines emotions and affection where connected parties always feel inadequate for not doing enough for the other. Not everyone is fortunate to have a soulmate and experience unconstrained flow of love, affections and a relationship.
BLUE
Let me introduce you to my soulmate – Blue. My Bichon Fries. He arrived in my life in 2007 from other family at an age of 4 who could not care for him. He adopted me and my environment. Never angry or growl just built with killer look. Being a dog, he had no voice but he trained me to cater to him and his needs. He became the ruler of domain. He changed me to a rational human being who would care and cater to those who do not ask. During one winter snow and ice storm there was a multiple day power outage. We ended up in a nice hotel. Except that was not his home and he reminded me of his displeasure. Solution – my house is now equipped with back-up generator. As he progressed in years, he slowed down but never let off his affections, his ownership spot and expression of pleasure upon satisfaction.
I grew up with a background able to hire help for anything that is needed. He taught me to be humble and accommodating. I learned to care for him and his needs as first priority. I cancelled trips and even locally stop being away from home because I did not want him to be alone. In past few years he lost his eye sights but he knew how to find me. He went on medication and prescription diet. I learned how to give him medication, his food and find things he liked. He just became my first priority. He became my cause and reason for each day.
LONG GOOD BYE
His time came and I had to let him go. He had over-lived his breed by being 19. I realized my soul has three compartments. One exclusively for Blue. He made me human and caring without asking but by his presence. I am handicapped with a part of my soul has travelled out of me. There is no band aid and solace just an irreplaceable gap of a unique soulmate who adopted me. I wish we would have never parted company but life does not work that way nor I can memorialize my soulmate well enough. There was nothing before and there nothing no more, just me a wounded soul who shall continue to cry and miss him.
Be in peace Blue, you have help build a human being in me. I shall miss you for now and forever through my last breath.